Today's blog comes again from me reflecting after a really good chat with people and this idea came to me today from a chat from friends Emilie and Debbie , so thank you guys today was awesome in so many ways.
I thought I should reflect on even though now I am not at my top or best form at the moment , how I got to here and how far I have come to stand where I am now, these are sorta my beginnings.
Here is something I should tell people which some people know, some people don't and it surprises both either way :
I have now Borderline Aspergers Syndrome
It affected me more as a child but still has lingering affects even now but I have took steps and built myself up to over come it, for those who don't know aspergers syndrome it is a hard mental illness ( if thats right term for it ) to describe, there is a wide spectrum of aspergers and viewed more as social handicap ( again i hope these are right words to choose ) generally people with aspergers find it hard talking to other people usually seeking solitude or only comfort / company in form of one or two people. Though they can be quite clever picking up certain skills or knowledge quickly making them quite a intelligent person but will also struggle to understand other things.
As said its hard to explain I mean i didn't gain any confidence or my knack of making friends until I went to college at age of 16 and when I was younger I picked up my knowledge and skill of math when I was younger very quickly along side science ( specifically physics ) but anything to do with english , I found it very hard to grasp and still do on occasion.
But when I went to junior school , I and my parents were told that I'd be lucky to learn little bit of math, little bit of english and science just enough to get by in life.....
I am currently working on a course that is allowing me to go back to university for second time which will be for a course I adore, I am viewed as quite knowledgable , loved by all my friends in my social circle ( which is bigger then I ever ) , I have performed in front of hundreds of people for acting and comedy , I get paid for doing close up magic and I have done stuff that many people take a lifetime to accomplish.
I have done all of this even though at a young age I was told I was gonna fail so guess what ...... fuck that haha I am going to go further then before I will always do so because I refuse to lose.
One thing I love is that at this moment , to how much my friends have been there for me and my ability to still solve their issues even when I am at my lowest point :') thank you guys , you all mean world to me.
I truly am a believer in this and been nice that they all want to stand for me, but I stand my ground when I say I would gladly die for any of my friends but I don't want them dying for me. But thats me, I will stand for my friends because that who I am , I will always make others happy over my own happiness.
I sorta unsure how to wrap this blog post up because I am still in my flux even though I've had a good day , I still have that little bit of emptiness in me , so I will leave you on these couple of little points
Firstly people - http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/you-will-never-see-me-fall - have a look at this poem , its a brilliant one and one think all should read and live by
secondly - http://www.whitedovebooks.co.uk/inspiration/poems.htm - this is a good site, great couple other inspiring poems but check out if by kipling its amazing
thirdly and last , I am yet to give up and it may take me a while to stand up again but I wont lose yet, even if all odds are against me I opened with Spartacus because that man did so much even when all was against him the most famous sorta story of his , is him taking 300 spartans and fighting against overwhelming odds of persians , ( check out the real history its quite cool ) but if you've seen the film you understand what I mean about one man taking a stand and making such a huge impact.
Thats what I feel I have done and what I have accomplished since a very young age to now, look at me better then ever and Im no where near ready to stop yet.... so then
SPARTANS - PREPARE FOR GLORY - WHHHOOOOOOO
Best regards
Peace and love
Your Man in the Hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds X
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