Let's try again and start afresh

Hello all again to my blog and my newest philosophies and experiences.

Well again much has happened in my life just this past week alone left with me a bit more insight and well couple let's say scars left upon me.

I'm unsure how to begin to write this or even where to begin. I suppose I'll write and see what comes out first and try to make sense of it.

One thing I worry or frightens is that people may be worried of my opinion or judgement. And the number of people I actually count who that applies to astounds me , I never thought once I'd be a person to be weary or frightend of. It's slowly now I feel like well sorta demi godish , a load of people who have my back and those who worry to displease or anger me worried my judgement will be cast upon them.

That's not what I'm suppose to stand for okay , yes I'll admit that I do want those who feel they have pissed me.off or angered or upset me or my friends to feel guilty and make amends for it but not to fear me , that's never how I want to be looked as , yes being looked up to as social god ( I use that term.loosely ) or a good man but not a titan or hard ruler were it comes across as your on my side or against me.

I feel some of the most recent tough events for me , have brought up some past emotions and regrets of myself and therefore I have turned a little a colder or tougher because for once I have had to.use my skills to defends myself and stand.ground against many people at once on all fronts while in a weak position.

I feel I will carry these lessons and scars if you will for a very long time upon me. But they are something I have had to learn and I must hold fast in myself and the belief that everything happens in the order its suppose to happen.

So let's try and start afresh before New term or if not come 10th September lets start a new chapter and new.adventures with New mistakes and more importantly new treasures / experiences.

Sorry for all the full stops you may find , I did this on my phone on a bus and its terrible for putting full stops in :').
Best regards
Peace and love your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds X ;)