Have I forgotten.....?

Here I am again another post about life , love, laughter and lessons to hold close and dear to my very being, so are we sitting comfortably..... good lets delve into it shall we ;)

At this moment in my life I feel like I am progressing but at the same time its only in baby steps..... I feel that for this small portion of say about 2 months I have lost track of who I am and who I want to be. I had a small couple of  knocks which moved me off my path and I forgot where I was, Who I am and where I wanted to be going.

It's times like these I remember Ryan, Luke , Tansy and David. These Guys taught me how to live, they showed me and still teach me , that at times I need to focus on myself and nothing else, do what I want for myself because I deserve it.
At the moment I am reflecting on what I have been thru, how I got here, what I have done and what I have achieved...... and its hell of a lot.
I have worked on several shows, made money, made new friends, strengthen connections, earned money for professional performances and made a couple of steps to finding out more about myself on my journey through life.

I great for giving people advice or telling them about mine and the experiences I have had, and I am not a person for dealing in lies or bullshit ( if you pardon my french) , I never forget anything that impacts my life and when I tell a story like Kvothe [ if you get the reference well done ;) ] I tell the full story, my thoughts, my actions everything, whether it be right or wrong of me, thats the bones of it doesn't matter, you want my experience or story thats what I give , take and make of it what you will.

With this in mind, I have reflected on everything, my achievements, my mistakes, what I want and what I have done so far.....remember all I have learnt, all my wrong doings and all my justifications and all I am proud of.
I dont forget a thing that makes me who I am in life, I try to recall all I have done to make sure I learn from it and move forward and with that I am re-evaulting things in my life at the moment
I have got to remember who I am.....Joseph "the Legend in making" Reynolds, I gotta remember how to live life.

Remember people who you are, it may take a while to find out who you are down to your core and soul but the journey and the accomplishments you will make, make it worth the while, remember how to live, if not I will come and teach you how to live

best regards
peace and love your man in the hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds X

Let's try again and start afresh

Hello all again to my blog and my newest philosophies and experiences.

Well again much has happened in my life just this past week alone left with me a bit more insight and well couple let's say scars left upon me.

I'm unsure how to begin to write this or even where to begin. I suppose I'll write and see what comes out first and try to make sense of it.

One thing I worry or frightens is that people may be worried of my opinion or judgement. And the number of people I actually count who that applies to astounds me , I never thought once I'd be a person to be weary or frightend of. It's slowly now I feel like well sorta demi godish , a load of people who have my back and those who worry to displease or anger me worried my judgement will be cast upon them.

That's not what I'm suppose to stand for okay , yes I'll admit that I do want those who feel they have pissed me.off or angered or upset me or my friends to feel guilty and make amends for it but not to fear me , that's never how I want to be looked as , yes being looked up to as social god ( I use that term.loosely ) or a good man but not a titan or hard ruler were it comes across as your on my side or against me.

I feel some of the most recent tough events for me , have brought up some past emotions and regrets of myself and therefore I have turned a little a colder or tougher because for once I have had to.use my skills to defends myself and stand.ground against many people at once on all fronts while in a weak position.

I feel I will carry these lessons and scars if you will for a very long time upon me. But they are something I have had to learn and I must hold fast in myself and the belief that everything happens in the order its suppose to happen.

So let's try and start afresh before New term or if not come 10th September lets start a new chapter and new.adventures with New mistakes and more importantly new treasures / experiences.

Sorry for all the full stops you may find , I did this on my phone on a bus and its terrible for putting full stops in :').
Best regards
Peace and love your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds X ;)