WHO AM I? - The Many Roles Of Joseph Reynolds

I am writing this for further study of depth of the many aspects of my lifestyle , I am finding that in my life both past , present and possibly in future that I will step into roles or professions or persona's quiet easily because what may be currently happening in my life or just because what I have to do or possibly even just of situations that have suddenly appeared from now where. I believe we all do this because we either progress as life goes on and so we build and adapt to become a more full version of ourselves and sometimes we regress because we take a knock here and there and do this to recover back to stable ground.

Before I continue , I write this and may mention stories or experiences that are quite personal therefore depending on what it is or who people are or what have you, I may be vague on some details and names etc for my own personal reasons and try to avoid offending people.
Again I write not to offend or judge anyone this is just my perception or my opinion and can be taken on board or just as easily discarded BUT all I ask is for you to read this open minded and to take it in and become stronger person , for I believe I am influential person and motivate/inspire other in their lives just as other have inspired me. The following may resonate with you if it does take a moment and think about it and know whether it was a good or bad moment/story in your life that you have adapted and grown and it will always be for the better , so then with this said lets crack on with this:

Who am I. I had a lot of ideas of how I wanted to write this piece and many styles I wanted to do when my friend Jenny Slack gave me a reply on a Facebook post saying I should called Who am I - Jesus :D.

This gave me the idea to then decided on the many roles I have took over the years of my life , the ones I have took , the ones I take at the moment and possibly what I plan to take/make in the future.

So first one here:

The Nice Guy - So this how I am often perceived and sometimes this is a good thing and sometimes a bad thing. It's a good thing because it's nice to know that I viewed highly in people's eyes as a warm and friendly person though sadly this delays me in areas because well people can take advantage of my gentle and nice nature leaving me feeling drained plus it can become kinda bland after a while , while still nice just become like a stereo typical nature/role.
So I'd say I am often this guy because I try to be well mannered and kind which is just who I am but it's hard to do because sometimes and I am trying to do this more that I should choose to look after myself because with this I tend to look out for other people more often then myself and this sometimes leaves me put out or make sacrifices for others at the cost of my own happiness , so it's a pro and con thing but I generally template I have that I build on.

The Entertainer - I role I also have and generally love is the entertainer. Someone who can command a space but be fun and open and just generally entreating via telling comedy or doing magic, I am an entertainer by nature I fell this is also crosses paths with another role the performer (which I'll also explain) but I love to entertain people , I feel everyone has a little bit of wanting attention and I have no shame saying I love being centre of attention when I feel like performing and entertaining people especially when I feel people need a boost to spirits and a giggle or a smile is a good way to start.

The Coward - This is a role I feel I shall always have and always do have in the very centre of my soul and being . But it's not necessarily a bad one, it keeps me alive running away, I can avoid fights when they are not needed and I  would rather be a coward any day then a meat head violent fighter, sometimes battles are won with words and wars are won by strategists. But one thing I would say that even though I may be a coward when it comes to conflicts and someone who may cry before they get angry is that I am A COWARD WHO WILL FIGHT IN SPITE OF THAT FEAR.  I will push through my fears and anything else if the cause is needed I have done in past and will do again especially if it's for a friend, some things in this world you need to run and some things are worth fighting for and  sometimes it is necessary to fight to run away :).

The Mentor / Life Coach  - This is a role I have had and narrowed it down to The Mentor/Life Coach because I have been a teacher / mentor of skills like acting, coffee making , comedy etc and a life coach which is advice on issues like money, anxiety's, studies and relationships ( yes the irony on last one is not lost on me XD. ). This a role I actually quite like for the main reason it reminds me of couple of people I admire and respect who have guided me through life (they know who they are) but the main one above all and I love him dearly so is my dad, I love this role because it makes me feel like him.
A strong person, loved by all, huge network of contacts and friends and immensely knowledgeable always knows what to say and can make any negative or bad situation into a positive and make anyone smile or giggle. I love this role because it's one thing I think deep down is truly me , I love having people come to me for help and I love being a teacher and a role model and helping people. I find nothing better then knowing someone needs help or advice and they come to me and it's even better when I give them help or advice  and it works its the best feeling in the world. I will always want to have this role even and especially when I become a parent.

The Bachelor/The Romantic/The Boyfriend/The Interest(Fling)/The Ex - We all knew this role was coming and of course I had to fit Barney Stinson in sooner or later but honestly I just spent about 20 Min's just trying to find this photo because I wanted each role I write to have a photo to suit that role and this suits it all.
He is one of the best portrayed bachelors for the single life, going out and living life to find and attract women, the romantic as he suit and fulfils each women's idea of what she wants in a mate to bed with and replicate with ( sex for those who aren't deep into psychology and evolution :P ) , the boyfriend to couple of women in the show he has actually stayed loyal to or those he just see's on and off. The interest and fling which of course he is for the amount of women he tends to go thru then of course the ex for the fact he does all of this and then picks up and moves on and some are harder then others.
A little rough around edges when compared to Barney Stinson but this is what I mean, this just basically a love life summary role because I could go on and on about the stereo types I have portrayed but this is simplified version plus I don't wanna rattle on and on about it in three other roles .
Anyway these are core roles I have took many time and have created good memories and bad one, a lot of life experience and naturally a lot of funny/interesting stories ( ask me sometime for one of them been good recently been telling people the one about this girl and her flinging me against a wall for make out haha its a good one). This is an area of my life I know is still quite in need of improvement and is still young to nurture but I know that I will probably flux through all of these types again and again and again and again before I finally find someone and they find me and we both go..... that's it no more I find the one person I wanna spend as much time with as possible that I wanna go to sleep with at night and I wanna wake up next to in the morning every morning.
I could go on and on but this is a role that if you know me , you more or less understand and even if you don't everyone has their own interpretation and that they need / you need to define for yourself :') .

The Student/ The Learner / The Apprentice -
This is a great chunk of my core. I am always one to learn, I have never had a problem asking for help in times of need and never had an question asked that I didn't want answered.
I love learning skills my only regret with this is that sometimes motivation/discipline for me is hard because if I'm not learning at a pace I am happy with I tend to dis-regard projects and the like until I'm in better mood. But if I'm in the zone or as I am now I find it easy to set a pace and exercises and learn stuff quickly and happily, this has caused me to improve several skill sets and become so much more.
Indeed this has made me more of a man of action instead of words for once, though I can still be a bit lazy or anxious depending on the project/skill I am trying to work on. I often find having a mentor or someone else learning with me improves my progress but I find it easy to perform or work in front of others because it's more fun. Thats one thing I recommend people to do when taking this role as I have "Have fun when learning" you'll do so much better and find progress is quickly covered when you enjoy learning and studying .

The Philosopher/Theorist
This is a great thing I enjoy and have started applying to quite a few other roles and generally in life.
For those like me who aren't sure of the definitions of these titles/roles here they are :

1. A person who offers views or theories or profound questions ethics, metaphysics, logic, and other related fields. 

2. A person who regulates his or her life , actions, judgments, utterances, etc., by the light of philosophy or reason. 

3. a person who is rationally or sensibly calm especially under-trying circumstances.

These definitions can be applied to both both and I feel some people should try it from time to time.

The two main ones in my life are: 

1. Take what work for you and reject what doesn't - this doesn't mean if something doesn't work for you initially forget it forever, just use what works for you on first go and and improve yourself and then if what work doesn't for you comes around again give another try and see if it works

2. Everything happens in the order - this is a great one and has helped me through a lot of great and bad times alike and its true, life can be easily broken down into any emotion/logic/number/etc and this one I find is just a fact, everything happens in the order its suppose to happen to create you and shape you into the person you are meant to be. Don't let it mean if something beats / defeats , don't let it beat you down, stand up , take the lesson you've learnt from it and move onwards.

This probably one of my most logical and fun roles to have because you can play with it so much one of my favourite questions usually with the difference with males and females like " do girls top and tail when sharing bed like guys do?"

There are few I am working on and each one has lead me to deep understanding of people and life, its a lovely little role that give me a sense of belief and strength sometimes when times are tough plus great way to have little fun with mates and people. Try it sometime ask people whether they think someone wearing purple is a sign of sexual frustration , it can lead to some great stories :').

The Performer

Now this can arguably be the same as the entertainer but I like to show the difference between them as best as I can here are the differences I can sort of explain :
1. An entertained is there to entertain , while a performer performs and therefore I class entertainers have to entertain you hence there title. While a perform only needs to perform whether you like it or not is your own choice or own interpretation .
2. A performer can be many things like an entertainer but I feel as an entertainer it needs to be good emotions or reactions that they cause , while a performer e.g. an actor can perform but cause people to cry for good reason because of a moving scene or monologue in the storyline of their character or play.
3. An entertainer I feel is and can only ever be light hearted and warm, where as a performer can be deep, mysterious, serious, comical, moving , calm and so much more of a persona or personality while an entertainer is limited to only being light hearted , fun and warm and nothing more.

I feel that wraps up the arguments to be made quite nicely, so lets move onto more of the role and how I feel makes up a part of me :-).

I feel the role of a performer is most suited to me because whether this seems self centred or not, it goes deeper then how I am going to describe it but I do like attention. There is probably nothing more then I like then being centre of attention especially when I am doing magic / comedy or acting.
It's not a bad thing to want attention, it is a bad thing to want attention all the time, I like to believe I have a nice balance between these two , I can gain attention of a crowd and room when there is a call for it but at same time I can take a step back, there are times when everyone wants me for my consul or my attention but I know when time calls for me to direct my attention to those who most need it.

I love my role as a performer I love the rush I can get for preparing for a show, the practice , the rehearsal and even sometimes the pressure that comes from bringing all my talents and efforts to the fore front and working on a single task/set/trick/monologue/show. The adrenaline of nerves before I step on that stage, the feelings I experienced when I hear crowds react to me and the glow I bathe in afterwards when I have done my very best and performed my talents and walked off that stage in my own world of accomplishment :'). It's hard to find words for these feelings but unless you ever done public speaking you won't know what I am talking about and even then you need to be a performer to even begin to touch on what I mean when I talk about this.......... it occurs to me some people who follow my professions still may not say they get this, they are confident or talented enough to not get nerves or frightened or experience this rush.
To them I pity you and doubt you because if you don't get these feelings or those experiences then I don't think you've ever lived as a performed to its full extent because getting these feeling I feel is what a performer is and is all part of the performance.

I feel the performer is a huge part of me again because it's those experiences and those rush of feelings that drive me to be confident and bold in life to take those risk sometimes, to risk being a fool to become a bigger part and a bigger role , a better version of me on this stage we called life.

The Avenger / The Defender 

Technically these are two roles but I feel they belong together because its close to the same thing because it's almost what any person or warrior should be someone who is bad and good at same time. Fights for themselves as avenger and fights for others as the defender , both sides are pros and cons each one is justified sometimes its for greediness or selfish reasons but sometimes its for a just cause or karma or just because its what they believe in and if you don't fight for what you believe in , for your faith and for your beliefs or people you believe in..... what is worth fighting for.

To fully state this role I feel dictionary definitions are needed:
avenger - someone who takes vengeance , I feel isn't a great definition of what I feel is one so here is the definition of avenge : 1. to take vengeance for or on. 2. to exact satisfaction for ( a wrong ) by punishing the wrongdoer
Defender - 1. To make or keep safe from danger, attack or harm . 2. To support or maintain, as by argument or action ; justify.

Not the best or full descriptive definitions but ones I feel people should take and have their own interpretations but at same times feel is what I view these roles and these positions people take in their lives.

Now for the why I feel I have taken these roles and why and how they fit with my personality.
Personally I am not a fighter, I don't like conflict and I've always and always will be one of those in favour of running from a fight rather than fighting it but sometimes you can't run from your problems or you can't avoid conflict and you need to fight.
It's times like that when I need to know the difference for fighting for myself and fighting for others, sometimes I need to stop being the defender for people and taking their problems to be my own and sometimes I need to be more of an avenger and fight for my own slightly selfish reasons.

But there is a reason I have taken these roles and I feel I will always have these roles in my life and you ( as in readers whether you are my friends or people just reading this blog take this as you wish to but if you can talk to me, feel free to ask me my better explanation of what I mean by this role) will have undoubtedly have in your life because they are needed and help you protect yourself and others , but here if my reason to have these roles and why they are part of my make up of a human being.

If you ever hurt / upset me and or my friends be careful because as a person and as a friend and as a man that I am , I may be acting nice or being polite but I am always watching and I am not one to forget anything you do against me or my friends. These are the dangers of these roles because you can either be by my side and have my power as the defender a man/friend who will be their for your highs and lows and will use everything at his command, his knowledge , his experience, his influence and his power to help you no matter what the situation thats the advantage .
The disadvantage of this is that you fall against me and face me as an avenger and I am sure anyone who is on my side will see me as too nice of a person to even do any of that but just know that while majority of that is true, never push your luck in life and especially when there is someone who can be a great ally because if they can be great ally they can also be a terrifying enemy and I am sure if I asked any of my mates they would agree they wouldn't want all I can do be turned against them because that would be a hard enemy to fight against while not physically strong, I am mentally, I have great friends to stand by my side and even I alone can cause problems for those who do me great harm or any inert or insult to those I call friend. So if you feel you have upset or angry me, I would take heed because here I speak truth :
If you feel you have angered / upset me directly tread carefully because it means until I feel i can trust you again, you have lowered yourself in my eyes and until you have gained my trust again, it means you fall into a position where you will lose me and those close to me and that means you lose a great ally and angered a gentle man. 
To summarise this last bit there is an old saying and as we know I love old sayings :') and therefore this one emphasises the last bit of that paragraph above. There are three things any wise man fears :

A storm at sea, a night with no moon and the anger of a gentleman. 

and if you can't understand that doctor who has a modern version of it -  Demons run, when a good man goes to war. 

So on that note I will leave this role their, its a role I always have and not a role I take lightly because its a role I take when I stand my ground and anyone who has seen that, has said its not me in my best light but it's me fighting for what I believe in. 

So with that ends one of the longer posts I have done and talks a lot about me and some more interesting points of my life and personality in generally, I may do another because I did have a lot more planned but I feel this is long enough and there is enough here to keep people questioning, asking for stories and thinking about their lives and how this can help them shape them.

So enjoy feel free to contact me for any questions or explanations on certain bits if you wish , or if you see me in everyday life or have my phone number drop a text or ring me and we can have catch up and chat :') . 

for those who don't my email is jr238230@gmail.com. I will happily respond to emails for questions, and stories or chat etc.

So please enjoy, live life, love, laugh, make mistakes , learn and move on. grow as a person and remember that you have one life, live it so when your old you can remember it and remembered it was worth living 

peace and love 

your man in the hat ;)

Joseph Reynolds X

20 and still making mistakes

Hello Bloggers, I have been quite for while , I do apologise I generally have been busy with all this work and shows stuff and I came to conclusion on my roles post, so the first part of that will be up in a day or two I promise but for now lets focus on the present. :)

Well Ladies and Gentle of the inter-web and my general friends and followers , I have grown another year older and their is a phrase that usually says another year older and another year wiser...... while I would say I have gained life experience and generally improved all round as person and my skills.
I have to inform with great regret and sadness ..... that I am 20 and while I am on the cusp of adulthood I am still making child like mistakes and I am worried that child like mistakes in the adult world bear a heavier burden then any other you could think of..... but I am jumping ahead lets start at the beginning... yeah that's usually a great place to start.

Number 1 - the first thing that I feel triggered these events is ( of course it is because its me ) a girl, and again I never bad mouth, I've never judged and while people may think differently ever time something bad goes wrong in my life, I always and will always blame myself and no others, okay maybe others had influence but at centre of it all, I held the power to shape and control it and ignored wise advice or tips and become once again a subject of my emotions and intentions and no one holds that but me.
To make a long story short - I met girl who gave me hope again in world of dating and still has but sadly, even though I tried to take it easy, I let my emotions become to involved so when it ended , it's reopened old wounds, but at least it's given me a chance to take steps back into that world.
For any one in this situation - I'd say there are people worth fighting for in this world, just remember to check whether you need something or just want something , because sometimes you will put yourself on the line for what may not be the best thing for you at certain times.

Number 2 - second thing now is that I feel I've neglected other peoples feelings and friends in couple situations and for that I apologise. There is one thing I have always said and that is "I am defended by the friends who are by my side."
That is true and I feel bad for ignoring couples peoples advice and neglected how they feel about my actions to situation but I know that they will forgive me in time and I know they only meant the best for me because sometimes I make stupid actions or choices and they need to tell me when I am being silly so thank you for that :') especially one certain person who gave me some great advice at the heart of situation . ( you know who you are ).


Number 3 - Because of these little situations and days with mates and people etc , and then looking out for others before myself, I've put myself into a little bit of bad money situation nothing over whelming but still tough times. I am 20 and still making silly errors but sometimes its not as bad it can be or i think it is. But say this to anyone with regards to money plan and double and triple check your cautions and leave yourself enough money to give yourself breathing space because sometimes a rainy day can come quicker then you think .

So all of these together make me feel that I have turned 20 and still making ballsy moves which can pay off in both short and long term run but sometimes they can lose still and make a short pay off.
child mistake but with adult life makes for big consequence.
I am still gonna get through this because I am luckier then most with my family, my life and my friends but to anyone reading this remember there is light at end of the tunnel and that no matter how big a problem or problems may seem, you are a brilliant and unique person and you can accomplish anything if you set yourself goals , aim high and you will achieve something even if its not your original goal you'll make progress.

hope that makes sense, I've not edited this because it comes from my heart and soul during my emotional period of deep thinking.
take care and live, laugh and love
best regards and peace and love
from your man in the hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds X