Hey again all fellow bloggers/readers/follower and of course those who read because you are great friends who wish to see how I am progressing in life, mind, body and soul
Well I am writing again for some motivation and inspiration for myself, I feel quite adrift at this particular time and sorta empty , almost like a small hollow feeling but quite unsure why though.
I was gonna say empty as almost emotionally numb but thats false I am still thinking and still am experiencing a variety of emotions but it is almost like a computer program on a system thats quite old, therefore taking a while to load and respond with some emotion, its a little annoying and saddening being honest readers. I feel like a small part of me has moved on/vanished or has died and my soul is deciding whether that is a good thing or a bad thing.
I've been thinking and working on a sorta new theory, the concept of 'You' , and no not you as a specific reference or a direct statement of "you that person there. " I am talking about 'You' as an individual , a solid fact and concept that you are always will be who you are at this moment and who you have been in the past, that you are constant and solid while at the same time should be viewed as a fluid concept , you are ever changing sometimes you may be say your first self (past self) and easily snap back to your second self (present self) but that can easily change into a future form, your third self ( future potential self) which reflects back onto your present self and also past self......That seems extremely confusing but if your following along good work and if not I shall explain in person or private message for anyone who wants me to explain :P.
Basically it conveys that we are who we are for all intents and purposes etc but we can easily change and adapt and like a fluid/flow of liquid we can change just as easy as that. It all comes back into living in the now and no other state of mind when it comes to this, take each step as it comes and whatever comes your way, find a way to face it then and their, okay maybe in hindsight , your choice may not be a good one but you reacted and lived then and their and no where else, you wasn't looking to past or looking to future you looked at the now and lived.
I am searching for something or sense I am at least, like a hero looking for a mentor or a protagonist looking for the next step on my journey......What I feel I need now is at least three days together where I can do what I wish when I want too, and not as in get away with anything I mean, if I wake up and go I think I shall go for a walk, I do it. I want to become a man of actions, taking steps towards a brighter future, I am a man of words as people know from my talking and of course due to this blog hahaha :). - feel this paragraph really do to my talk with national treasure Tansy Parkinson
But I feel at this moment, I need to absorb and just float for a while in my emotions, my experiences (past/present) and thoughts and just............. reflect/think on everything and I mean everything , so I can answer the questions of who I am, what I wish to aim for/ achieve (Beyond being loved - see previous post Revelation - Fast Car) and what do I want at this present moment ( this should always be asked in any present moment, It's a brilliant way to work for thoughts and emotions as long as your openly honest)
I believe and know for this I have to be brutally open about loads and be really open minded so that I can truly reflect and gather all these many thing : emotions, thoughts, advice, quotes, theories etc etc etc. I feel that when I have truly done this both now ( as in these next couple days while carrying on) and in future I will be living in the now, in the moment and be able to take each step as it comes and progress forwards and upwards in everything.
I love writing these blog, gives me a insight my own advice and thoughts, its like a longer way of hearing some advice or opinions and gets me pumped/motivated to do something and gives me great feeling of accomplishment and comfort.
I again may edit or change stuff when in hindsight or had more time to think , so if you see me re-post a link to this post, check it out and see if i've added more. Usually less is more but I like to have a mindset and lifestyle of abundance when I can imagine / visualize it makes it feel like you have so much more
Best Regards as usually people
Living in the now your man in the hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds x
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