Hey once again
So here I am once again updating this and the title for today's piece of writing is called "Life and It's unpredictable changes". This is about life i write it now after couple of major changes in my life so i may write and then re-edit myself as i go along but think this is a great way to release a bit of my mental pressure and a nice way to do it i think.
Just a note and I will mention it again at the end before some thanks i think possibly haven't decided yet but all this is good and I hold no ill will or bad bearings to anyone mention in any light. all the people possibly referenced to in this whether good or bad or sometimes indifferent are all fantastic people and people I respect and admire , if any of them feel i may mention a bad thing about them, then I ask them to please talk to me and i I will happily edit or talk to them but everyone I keep in my life and stay in contact with no matter the time I last spoke to them mean so much to me and wouldn't want them to ever leave my life.
So sadly in one aspect of my life I am lacking again but should I feel angry, should I feel sad, how should anyone react when they become single again, these things affect everyone differently some people come to terms with it quickly, some take longer and some people just don't care, I don't think anyone in my life falls into that last category except my very first girlfriend and she isn't worth any space in my head anymore.
I have had a many talks with people each one been a funny and re-assuring matter but all comes back down to "you'll be back up in no time as you always are Joe/Joseph/Joey (depending who I am speaking to). And that's true I have faced situations like this before and worse all the more where life and death has been a main risk at times (but those are different stories), I suppose that should make it better but it doesn't but what can I do , keep clinging on to maybe that we could get back together, wish that person ill will......NO that is bad on both accounts what ever doesn't kill you makes you stronger and though it may take time, time heals all wounds and makes you better for it.
Secondly if I did truly care for that person why would I bear them ill will, do I not want them happy, do I not want them to succeed in life....YES, YES I DO. And maybe that doesn't include me in their life in that aspect but I am still in their life as their friend and I would like to believe as a very important friend, but all my friends are important to me, they have always supported me and they have done that for me now and I believe they would in the future.
I will always do the same for them, I am not a spiteful guy or a vengeful guy, I have been with people who have gotten what they want , sometimes even if it meant I myself had to sacrifice my opportunity or possibly what could be referred to as 'My Happiness' in the process. But would I change anything ........
NO I WOULDN'T , those time have made me who I am and they have made me into a very loved and caring person who has a great life and lifestyle and many awesome friends with so many opportunities in the unknown future.
In my last little bit before the end, I'd have to say that couple of things people have said that mean a lot to me and I could and possibly am writing a paragraph on who they are and what they said but it means a lot to me and these people have kept me and will keep me moving on towards the future:
"You will remember those times till day you die but you will always remember that you had them" - Tom
"I'm not gonna lie Joe, its gonna hurt and may take awhile but your a great guy and will get through it but I'm here for you night and day if you need me" - Charley
"Everything Happens in the order it's suppose to happen" - Luke
"Here if you need a chat anytime lovely" - Jenny, Stacey, Rachael and many many more of my friends ;'D
So I wouldn't change a single step of what I had for it was brilliant and I think I'd regret changing anything because for me it was perfection.
So yes I will have my ups and downs, good times and bad times. But I will live life as it is, for it is too short for regrets and what ifs. So yes I don't have those times at the moment that makes me go "oh yeah that was awesome/lovely/beautiful." But as my friend once said I will always remember that I had them :')
Peace and Best regards
Joseph Reynolds , your guy in the hat x
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