Start Afresh ( aka hell of week/end )

Hello all

I am writing this after a hell of a busy week and one dam terrible weekend of possible one of the worst illnesses/ viruses you can possible contract.

But after two days of loss of strength, thought and fluids I am feeling mostly better and when I have been able to gather my thoughts or be left with them floating freely. It gave me quite some time to review past half a year or so and look at myself between then and now, my goals, my adventures, my change and what I am I suppose.

And I've faced a lot this weekend, both physically and mentally and I realised quite a few things
I could have handled lot of stuff better
I miss of couple people in my life
I'm out of touch with quite a few things
I get far too stressed far too easily / same could be said for being wound up
I could be far better with my cash / far better with my work
and quite a few more things

I think I need to re-think quite few things on my out looks and just try to be little bit more laid back in so much, I need to get off my laptop a bit more and read more books i think, get some earlier nights too

I'd probably say this weekend I've been to a little personal hell and back and had time to gather myself in a ill limbo to review myself and see what does and doesn't matter, what I should stress about and what I shouldn't and mostly importantly  what I should have in my life whether it be here now or when it does come along, quite few mistakes I wish I could change but sadly I cant but once again
I shall stick to my best friends advices the most note-able begin "everything happens in the order it's suppose to happen."

So I say to all, keep ticking on as I will as well and maybe you will see what else is important to hold to heart as I have, life and shit happens but only you know what matters most . Until then I am gonna read and get early night for little bit , lets grow a little more eh :")

Peace and Love
from your man in the hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds X

Let Me Tell You A Tale

Hey Everyone

If your reading this I have re-joined Facebook and The social world after taking some time away from online, though I am still sorta taking couple of steps back for safety I have re-joined because well....Let me tell you a tale ;)

Well basically how I came back so soon and suddenly was because sadly good friend of mine played a very very cruel joke....and I was in tears but it was all changed when realised was a cruel joke and long story short, a miracle happened and a friend came back from the dead.... at first I was upset and then mad but at another look I realised how grateful I was that my friend was still alive well and breathing :")

I have had a rough fortnight and tonight especially I seemed to have gone over a lot of tough shit in my life that has happened to me, so again basically I have lived through all these mistakes , errors and nightmares in my life , I have travelled through my own personal hell and back tonight but....

It's formed me into who I am today and I tell you what and think few people will agree has made me have to grow up and mature at stronger and faster rate and I have gained much better sense of the world , my abilities and just a general set of morale's and principles.

Though they can be a heavy bit at times for example stepping aside on couple of things because I wish to support or be a true bro... I always will because thats just sorta guy I am .... Not a bad thing but not great thing either but it's a good thing to have in a friend and believe thats what I am.

I am getting back to sense of me again, I strong stand alone me and I am gonna always carry on getting bigger, better, faster , stronger.....

You watch me, I gonna go far as possible , aim for the stars and the rising sun, see how far I will go and how high I will soar then I will sit down when I am older still and talk of many adventures, stories and jokes but more then likely I will sit down with you with a table , a chair and a drink and say 

"Let me tell you a tale ;) "

thank you people , you know who you are , all affected me greatly and from others I have learnt much

Best Regards
Peace and Love
From your man in the hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds X

Good friends and shout

On behalf of one good friend i owe a lot to
i have removed my last post of be prepared

he is right, of course he is , he is legend and sang tribute better then me and first and looks dam fine in a suit

but for those who did catch it briefly......am i wrong or right, ask me the story any story,
and you'll see :')

thank you

A Wind And A Storm

Hey again bloggers, viewers, friends, family and all those reading thank you for taking time to read this.

I write today because I sense a change in the wind and a storm approaching , though both could be connected , I am not entirely sure....

A lot has happened over these couple of months , I have faced harsh realities , shocking truths, overcome obstacles and done so much that has added to me and helped me become more of me.

But sadly also things linger on or the burden on shoulders , the heart and the mind. These things have to be addressed one way or another otherwise they just slow / drag you down....
I am in a bad place again but I know that will change I didn't get to where I am now and how strong I became to be without getting thru this before .... It just seems in this moment that it isn't gonna happen or that more or less I have halted my own progress....
But I can sense a change I feel a storm approaching and I must be ready to stand against it whatever it holds for me, with the storm comes wind.
The wind bring powers and a force stronger then anything, I shall use this wind and spread my wings and fly back to that blue sky and towards the sun.. the biggest star we as people can see and I shall fly again onwards and upwards no matter what.

and so should you....
thank again for your time people
peace and love from your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds X

The Road To A King

Hey people

It’s my first time back here and first time writing a proper post, i think last time i was here i posted the poem ” if by rudyard kipling”. its a pretty epic poem and should be more well known it actually is by people.

But either way its about being a man, or being a better , stronger and more confident person, in a more eloquent way its about being a better version of yourself.

If anyone does or doesn’t know me, you will know I’ve been through quite a lot of life experiences and most recently i have had lot on my plate and still sorta do and its fucked with my mind and my life really, i’ve not been me, the king of the ring, the champion and just more or less the best way me. I still smile, laugh, give advice and put others before myself because that is me but I’m not fully there i am just on auto pilot.

well couple other things have happened and stuff been said, done or found out and sorted out, and performed, paid, produce and about everything and anything from anywhere been there and been done, so i decided to change all this again and go fuck it, lets get back on the road of my life, my journey, my story, the road to kingdom.

I say king ( because ive been reading air gear far too much atm ) because its a road to the top, to a throne of sorta, to being the ruler of my own personal kingdom/world.

I am going back to the core again, lets just get out there and have fun, I’m gonna keep reading this poem over and over to myself and im gonna keep setting myself little social and personal goals or games to play each day to just live life and enjoy myself again and then i will find who i am and where and what i am meant to be

and that will be me - joey the journey to becoming a king

best regards

Peace and love from your man in the hat 

Joseph Reynolds X

Have I forgotten.....?

Here I am again another post about life , love, laughter and lessons to hold close and dear to my very being, so are we sitting comfortably..... good lets delve into it shall we ;)

At this moment in my life I feel like I am progressing but at the same time its only in baby steps..... I feel that for this small portion of say about 2 months I have lost track of who I am and who I want to be. I had a small couple of  knocks which moved me off my path and I forgot where I was, Who I am and where I wanted to be going.

It's times like these I remember Ryan, Luke , Tansy and David. These Guys taught me how to live, they showed me and still teach me , that at times I need to focus on myself and nothing else, do what I want for myself because I deserve it.
At the moment I am reflecting on what I have been thru, how I got here, what I have done and what I have achieved...... and its hell of a lot.
I have worked on several shows, made money, made new friends, strengthen connections, earned money for professional performances and made a couple of steps to finding out more about myself on my journey through life.

I great for giving people advice or telling them about mine and the experiences I have had, and I am not a person for dealing in lies or bullshit ( if you pardon my french) , I never forget anything that impacts my life and when I tell a story like Kvothe [ if you get the reference well done ;) ] I tell the full story, my thoughts, my actions everything, whether it be right or wrong of me, thats the bones of it doesn't matter, you want my experience or story thats what I give , take and make of it what you will.

With this in mind, I have reflected on everything, my achievements, my mistakes, what I want and what I have done so far.....remember all I have learnt, all my wrong doings and all my justifications and all I am proud of.
I dont forget a thing that makes me who I am in life, I try to recall all I have done to make sure I learn from it and move forward and with that I am re-evaulting things in my life at the moment
I have got to remember who I am.....Joseph "the Legend in making" Reynolds, I gotta remember how to live life.

Remember people who you are, it may take a while to find out who you are down to your core and soul but the journey and the accomplishments you will make, make it worth the while, remember how to live, if not I will come and teach you how to live

best regards
peace and love your man in the hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds X

Let's try again and start afresh

Hello all again to my blog and my newest philosophies and experiences.

Well again much has happened in my life just this past week alone left with me a bit more insight and well couple let's say scars left upon me.

I'm unsure how to begin to write this or even where to begin. I suppose I'll write and see what comes out first and try to make sense of it.

One thing I worry or frightens is that people may be worried of my opinion or judgement. And the number of people I actually count who that applies to astounds me , I never thought once I'd be a person to be weary or frightend of. It's slowly now I feel like well sorta demi godish , a load of people who have my back and those who worry to displease or anger me worried my judgement will be cast upon them.

That's not what I'm suppose to stand for okay , yes I'll admit that I do want those who feel they have pissed me.off or angered or upset me or my friends to feel guilty and make amends for it but not to fear me , that's never how I want to be looked as , yes being looked up to as social god ( I use that term.loosely ) or a good man but not a titan or hard ruler were it comes across as your on my side or against me.

I feel some of the most recent tough events for me , have brought up some past emotions and regrets of myself and therefore I have turned a little a colder or tougher because for once I have had to.use my skills to defends myself and stand.ground against many people at once on all fronts while in a weak position.

I feel I will carry these lessons and scars if you will for a very long time upon me. But they are something I have had to learn and I must hold fast in myself and the belief that everything happens in the order its suppose to happen.

So let's try and start afresh before New term or if not come 10th September lets start a new chapter and new.adventures with New mistakes and more importantly new treasures / experiences.

Sorry for all the full stops you may find , I did this on my phone on a bus and its terrible for putting full stops in :').
Best regards
Peace and love your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds X ;)

WHO AM I? - The Many Roles Of Joseph Reynolds

I am writing this for further study of depth of the many aspects of my lifestyle , I am finding that in my life both past , present and possibly in future that I will step into roles or professions or persona's quiet easily because what may be currently happening in my life or just because what I have to do or possibly even just of situations that have suddenly appeared from now where. I believe we all do this because we either progress as life goes on and so we build and adapt to become a more full version of ourselves and sometimes we regress because we take a knock here and there and do this to recover back to stable ground.

Before I continue , I write this and may mention stories or experiences that are quite personal therefore depending on what it is or who people are or what have you, I may be vague on some details and names etc for my own personal reasons and try to avoid offending people.
Again I write not to offend or judge anyone this is just my perception or my opinion and can be taken on board or just as easily discarded BUT all I ask is for you to read this open minded and to take it in and become stronger person , for I believe I am influential person and motivate/inspire other in their lives just as other have inspired me. The following may resonate with you if it does take a moment and think about it and know whether it was a good or bad moment/story in your life that you have adapted and grown and it will always be for the better , so then with this said lets crack on with this:

Who am I. I had a lot of ideas of how I wanted to write this piece and many styles I wanted to do when my friend Jenny Slack gave me a reply on a Facebook post saying I should called Who am I - Jesus :D.

This gave me the idea to then decided on the many roles I have took over the years of my life , the ones I have took , the ones I take at the moment and possibly what I plan to take/make in the future.

So first one here:

The Nice Guy - So this how I am often perceived and sometimes this is a good thing and sometimes a bad thing. It's a good thing because it's nice to know that I viewed highly in people's eyes as a warm and friendly person though sadly this delays me in areas because well people can take advantage of my gentle and nice nature leaving me feeling drained plus it can become kinda bland after a while , while still nice just become like a stereo typical nature/role.
So I'd say I am often this guy because I try to be well mannered and kind which is just who I am but it's hard to do because sometimes and I am trying to do this more that I should choose to look after myself because with this I tend to look out for other people more often then myself and this sometimes leaves me put out or make sacrifices for others at the cost of my own happiness , so it's a pro and con thing but I generally template I have that I build on.

The Entertainer - I role I also have and generally love is the entertainer. Someone who can command a space but be fun and open and just generally entreating via telling comedy or doing magic, I am an entertainer by nature I fell this is also crosses paths with another role the performer (which I'll also explain) but I love to entertain people , I feel everyone has a little bit of wanting attention and I have no shame saying I love being centre of attention when I feel like performing and entertaining people especially when I feel people need a boost to spirits and a giggle or a smile is a good way to start.

The Coward - This is a role I feel I shall always have and always do have in the very centre of my soul and being . But it's not necessarily a bad one, it keeps me alive running away, I can avoid fights when they are not needed and I  would rather be a coward any day then a meat head violent fighter, sometimes battles are won with words and wars are won by strategists. But one thing I would say that even though I may be a coward when it comes to conflicts and someone who may cry before they get angry is that I am A COWARD WHO WILL FIGHT IN SPITE OF THAT FEAR.  I will push through my fears and anything else if the cause is needed I have done in past and will do again especially if it's for a friend, some things in this world you need to run and some things are worth fighting for and  sometimes it is necessary to fight to run away :).

The Mentor / Life Coach  - This is a role I have had and narrowed it down to The Mentor/Life Coach because I have been a teacher / mentor of skills like acting, coffee making , comedy etc and a life coach which is advice on issues like money, anxiety's, studies and relationships ( yes the irony on last one is not lost on me XD. ). This a role I actually quite like for the main reason it reminds me of couple of people I admire and respect who have guided me through life (they know who they are) but the main one above all and I love him dearly so is my dad, I love this role because it makes me feel like him.
A strong person, loved by all, huge network of contacts and friends and immensely knowledgeable always knows what to say and can make any negative or bad situation into a positive and make anyone smile or giggle. I love this role because it's one thing I think deep down is truly me , I love having people come to me for help and I love being a teacher and a role model and helping people. I find nothing better then knowing someone needs help or advice and they come to me and it's even better when I give them help or advice  and it works its the best feeling in the world. I will always want to have this role even and especially when I become a parent.

The Bachelor/The Romantic/The Boyfriend/The Interest(Fling)/The Ex - We all knew this role was coming and of course I had to fit Barney Stinson in sooner or later but honestly I just spent about 20 Min's just trying to find this photo because I wanted each role I write to have a photo to suit that role and this suits it all.
He is one of the best portrayed bachelors for the single life, going out and living life to find and attract women, the romantic as he suit and fulfils each women's idea of what she wants in a mate to bed with and replicate with ( sex for those who aren't deep into psychology and evolution :P ) , the boyfriend to couple of women in the show he has actually stayed loyal to or those he just see's on and off. The interest and fling which of course he is for the amount of women he tends to go thru then of course the ex for the fact he does all of this and then picks up and moves on and some are harder then others.
A little rough around edges when compared to Barney Stinson but this is what I mean, this just basically a love life summary role because I could go on and on about the stereo types I have portrayed but this is simplified version plus I don't wanna rattle on and on about it in three other roles .
Anyway these are core roles I have took many time and have created good memories and bad one, a lot of life experience and naturally a lot of funny/interesting stories ( ask me sometime for one of them been good recently been telling people the one about this girl and her flinging me against a wall for make out haha its a good one). This is an area of my life I know is still quite in need of improvement and is still young to nurture but I know that I will probably flux through all of these types again and again and again and again before I finally find someone and they find me and we both go..... that's it no more I find the one person I wanna spend as much time with as possible that I wanna go to sleep with at night and I wanna wake up next to in the morning every morning.
I could go on and on but this is a role that if you know me , you more or less understand and even if you don't everyone has their own interpretation and that they need / you need to define for yourself :') .

The Student/ The Learner / The Apprentice -
This is a great chunk of my core. I am always one to learn, I have never had a problem asking for help in times of need and never had an question asked that I didn't want answered.
I love learning skills my only regret with this is that sometimes motivation/discipline for me is hard because if I'm not learning at a pace I am happy with I tend to dis-regard projects and the like until I'm in better mood. But if I'm in the zone or as I am now I find it easy to set a pace and exercises and learn stuff quickly and happily, this has caused me to improve several skill sets and become so much more.
Indeed this has made me more of a man of action instead of words for once, though I can still be a bit lazy or anxious depending on the project/skill I am trying to work on. I often find having a mentor or someone else learning with me improves my progress but I find it easy to perform or work in front of others because it's more fun. Thats one thing I recommend people to do when taking this role as I have "Have fun when learning" you'll do so much better and find progress is quickly covered when you enjoy learning and studying .

The Philosopher/Theorist
This is a great thing I enjoy and have started applying to quite a few other roles and generally in life.
For those like me who aren't sure of the definitions of these titles/roles here they are :

1. A person who offers views or theories or profound questions ethics, metaphysics, logic, and other related fields. 

2. A person who regulates his or her life , actions, judgments, utterances, etc., by the light of philosophy or reason. 

3. a person who is rationally or sensibly calm especially under-trying circumstances.

These definitions can be applied to both both and I feel some people should try it from time to time.

The two main ones in my life are: 

1. Take what work for you and reject what doesn't - this doesn't mean if something doesn't work for you initially forget it forever, just use what works for you on first go and and improve yourself and then if what work doesn't for you comes around again give another try and see if it works

2. Everything happens in the order - this is a great one and has helped me through a lot of great and bad times alike and its true, life can be easily broken down into any emotion/logic/number/etc and this one I find is just a fact, everything happens in the order its suppose to happen to create you and shape you into the person you are meant to be. Don't let it mean if something beats / defeats , don't let it beat you down, stand up , take the lesson you've learnt from it and move onwards.

This probably one of my most logical and fun roles to have because you can play with it so much one of my favourite questions usually with the difference with males and females like " do girls top and tail when sharing bed like guys do?"

There are few I am working on and each one has lead me to deep understanding of people and life, its a lovely little role that give me a sense of belief and strength sometimes when times are tough plus great way to have little fun with mates and people. Try it sometime ask people whether they think someone wearing purple is a sign of sexual frustration , it can lead to some great stories :').

The Performer

Now this can arguably be the same as the entertainer but I like to show the difference between them as best as I can here are the differences I can sort of explain :
1. An entertained is there to entertain , while a performer performs and therefore I class entertainers have to entertain you hence there title. While a perform only needs to perform whether you like it or not is your own choice or own interpretation .
2. A performer can be many things like an entertainer but I feel as an entertainer it needs to be good emotions or reactions that they cause , while a performer e.g. an actor can perform but cause people to cry for good reason because of a moving scene or monologue in the storyline of their character or play.
3. An entertainer I feel is and can only ever be light hearted and warm, where as a performer can be deep, mysterious, serious, comical, moving , calm and so much more of a persona or personality while an entertainer is limited to only being light hearted , fun and warm and nothing more.

I feel that wraps up the arguments to be made quite nicely, so lets move onto more of the role and how I feel makes up a part of me :-).

I feel the role of a performer is most suited to me because whether this seems self centred or not, it goes deeper then how I am going to describe it but I do like attention. There is probably nothing more then I like then being centre of attention especially when I am doing magic / comedy or acting.
It's not a bad thing to want attention, it is a bad thing to want attention all the time, I like to believe I have a nice balance between these two , I can gain attention of a crowd and room when there is a call for it but at same time I can take a step back, there are times when everyone wants me for my consul or my attention but I know when time calls for me to direct my attention to those who most need it.

I love my role as a performer I love the rush I can get for preparing for a show, the practice , the rehearsal and even sometimes the pressure that comes from bringing all my talents and efforts to the fore front and working on a single task/set/trick/monologue/show. The adrenaline of nerves before I step on that stage, the feelings I experienced when I hear crowds react to me and the glow I bathe in afterwards when I have done my very best and performed my talents and walked off that stage in my own world of accomplishment :'). It's hard to find words for these feelings but unless you ever done public speaking you won't know what I am talking about and even then you need to be a performer to even begin to touch on what I mean when I talk about this.......... it occurs to me some people who follow my professions still may not say they get this, they are confident or talented enough to not get nerves or frightened or experience this rush.
To them I pity you and doubt you because if you don't get these feelings or those experiences then I don't think you've ever lived as a performed to its full extent because getting these feeling I feel is what a performer is and is all part of the performance.

I feel the performer is a huge part of me again because it's those experiences and those rush of feelings that drive me to be confident and bold in life to take those risk sometimes, to risk being a fool to become a bigger part and a bigger role , a better version of me on this stage we called life.

The Avenger / The Defender 

Technically these are two roles but I feel they belong together because its close to the same thing because it's almost what any person or warrior should be someone who is bad and good at same time. Fights for themselves as avenger and fights for others as the defender , both sides are pros and cons each one is justified sometimes its for greediness or selfish reasons but sometimes its for a just cause or karma or just because its what they believe in and if you don't fight for what you believe in , for your faith and for your beliefs or people you believe in..... what is worth fighting for.

To fully state this role I feel dictionary definitions are needed:
avenger - someone who takes vengeance , I feel isn't a great definition of what I feel is one so here is the definition of avenge : 1. to take vengeance for or on. 2. to exact satisfaction for ( a wrong ) by punishing the wrongdoer
Defender - 1. To make or keep safe from danger, attack or harm . 2. To support or maintain, as by argument or action ; justify.

Not the best or full descriptive definitions but ones I feel people should take and have their own interpretations but at same times feel is what I view these roles and these positions people take in their lives.

Now for the why I feel I have taken these roles and why and how they fit with my personality.
Personally I am not a fighter, I don't like conflict and I've always and always will be one of those in favour of running from a fight rather than fighting it but sometimes you can't run from your problems or you can't avoid conflict and you need to fight.
It's times like that when I need to know the difference for fighting for myself and fighting for others, sometimes I need to stop being the defender for people and taking their problems to be my own and sometimes I need to be more of an avenger and fight for my own slightly selfish reasons.

But there is a reason I have taken these roles and I feel I will always have these roles in my life and you ( as in readers whether you are my friends or people just reading this blog take this as you wish to but if you can talk to me, feel free to ask me my better explanation of what I mean by this role) will have undoubtedly have in your life because they are needed and help you protect yourself and others , but here if my reason to have these roles and why they are part of my make up of a human being.

If you ever hurt / upset me and or my friends be careful because as a person and as a friend and as a man that I am , I may be acting nice or being polite but I am always watching and I am not one to forget anything you do against me or my friends. These are the dangers of these roles because you can either be by my side and have my power as the defender a man/friend who will be their for your highs and lows and will use everything at his command, his knowledge , his experience, his influence and his power to help you no matter what the situation thats the advantage .
The disadvantage of this is that you fall against me and face me as an avenger and I am sure anyone who is on my side will see me as too nice of a person to even do any of that but just know that while majority of that is true, never push your luck in life and especially when there is someone who can be a great ally because if they can be great ally they can also be a terrifying enemy and I am sure if I asked any of my mates they would agree they wouldn't want all I can do be turned against them because that would be a hard enemy to fight against while not physically strong, I am mentally, I have great friends to stand by my side and even I alone can cause problems for those who do me great harm or any inert or insult to those I call friend. So if you feel you have upset or angry me, I would take heed because here I speak truth :
If you feel you have angered / upset me directly tread carefully because it means until I feel i can trust you again, you have lowered yourself in my eyes and until you have gained my trust again, it means you fall into a position where you will lose me and those close to me and that means you lose a great ally and angered a gentle man. 
To summarise this last bit there is an old saying and as we know I love old sayings :') and therefore this one emphasises the last bit of that paragraph above. There are three things any wise man fears :

A storm at sea, a night with no moon and the anger of a gentleman. 

and if you can't understand that doctor who has a modern version of it -  Demons run, when a good man goes to war. 

So on that note I will leave this role their, its a role I always have and not a role I take lightly because its a role I take when I stand my ground and anyone who has seen that, has said its not me in my best light but it's me fighting for what I believe in. 

So with that ends one of the longer posts I have done and talks a lot about me and some more interesting points of my life and personality in generally, I may do another because I did have a lot more planned but I feel this is long enough and there is enough here to keep people questioning, asking for stories and thinking about their lives and how this can help them shape them.

So enjoy feel free to contact me for any questions or explanations on certain bits if you wish , or if you see me in everyday life or have my phone number drop a text or ring me and we can have catch up and chat :') . 

for those who don't my email is jr238230@gmail.com. I will happily respond to emails for questions, and stories or chat etc.

So please enjoy, live life, love, laugh, make mistakes , learn and move on. grow as a person and remember that you have one life, live it so when your old you can remember it and remembered it was worth living 

peace and love 

your man in the hat ;)

Joseph Reynolds X

20 and still making mistakes

Hello Bloggers, I have been quite for while , I do apologise I generally have been busy with all this work and shows stuff and I came to conclusion on my roles post, so the first part of that will be up in a day or two I promise but for now lets focus on the present. :)

Well Ladies and Gentle of the inter-web and my general friends and followers , I have grown another year older and their is a phrase that usually says another year older and another year wiser...... while I would say I have gained life experience and generally improved all round as person and my skills.
I have to inform with great regret and sadness ..... that I am 20 and while I am on the cusp of adulthood I am still making child like mistakes and I am worried that child like mistakes in the adult world bear a heavier burden then any other you could think of..... but I am jumping ahead lets start at the beginning... yeah that's usually a great place to start.

Number 1 - the first thing that I feel triggered these events is ( of course it is because its me ) a girl, and again I never bad mouth, I've never judged and while people may think differently ever time something bad goes wrong in my life, I always and will always blame myself and no others, okay maybe others had influence but at centre of it all, I held the power to shape and control it and ignored wise advice or tips and become once again a subject of my emotions and intentions and no one holds that but me.
To make a long story short - I met girl who gave me hope again in world of dating and still has but sadly, even though I tried to take it easy, I let my emotions become to involved so when it ended , it's reopened old wounds, but at least it's given me a chance to take steps back into that world.
For any one in this situation - I'd say there are people worth fighting for in this world, just remember to check whether you need something or just want something , because sometimes you will put yourself on the line for what may not be the best thing for you at certain times.

Number 2 - second thing now is that I feel I've neglected other peoples feelings and friends in couple situations and for that I apologise. There is one thing I have always said and that is "I am defended by the friends who are by my side."
That is true and I feel bad for ignoring couples peoples advice and neglected how they feel about my actions to situation but I know that they will forgive me in time and I know they only meant the best for me because sometimes I make stupid actions or choices and they need to tell me when I am being silly so thank you for that :') especially one certain person who gave me some great advice at the heart of situation . ( you know who you are ).


Number 3 - Because of these little situations and days with mates and people etc , and then looking out for others before myself, I've put myself into a little bit of bad money situation nothing over whelming but still tough times. I am 20 and still making silly errors but sometimes its not as bad it can be or i think it is. But say this to anyone with regards to money plan and double and triple check your cautions and leave yourself enough money to give yourself breathing space because sometimes a rainy day can come quicker then you think .

So all of these together make me feel that I have turned 20 and still making ballsy moves which can pay off in both short and long term run but sometimes they can lose still and make a short pay off.
child mistake but with adult life makes for big consequence.
I am still gonna get through this because I am luckier then most with my family, my life and my friends but to anyone reading this remember there is light at end of the tunnel and that no matter how big a problem or problems may seem, you are a brilliant and unique person and you can accomplish anything if you set yourself goals , aim high and you will achieve something even if its not your original goal you'll make progress.

hope that makes sense, I've not edited this because it comes from my heart and soul during my emotional period of deep thinking.
take care and live, laugh and love
best regards and peace and love
from your man in the hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds X

My Birthday Break - A New Realisation

Hello once again everyone

It's been awhile since I've written and I'm still not sure if I will ever be able to fully do my Roles blog post in one piece so I may just post it up eventually.

I am writing this for mainly something to do but also its my birthday week and so so so much has happened that its astounded me.
First of all - I've managed to sort out majority of my room which is just one of those little things that you always need to do but never get round to doing so I feel a little accomplished in that.
Secondly - A new academy/acting opportunity has arisen once again showing me that I am an immensely lucky bugger , Though I do always believe these things happen for a reason and while I believe this is to help further down my acting/ career skills there may be another reason behind this......

Thirdly - I feel I have found someone to open myself too, whether this be a new best friend or possibly more I have no idea but strangely , after a month and half of being single I did start liking girls again and even had a few offers of some ( I know weird right XD) but I turned them all away for one reason or another because I just didn't..... feel that spark, that interest, that thing that says lets give it a go no matter how it happens. Me and this person have apparently come from similar history and want to just see how it goes but no matter how this ends, it will remain with me forever.

If anything this week has given me , so much, a sense of accomplishment , a sense of adventure again and definitely a sense that my heart can carry on beating because some people are worth meeting and some people are worth risking it for.....
This probably seems like complete gibberish or nonsense to some people but let me try and summarise it for everyone.

When life knock you down, no matter how hard, get back up, you may not feel the same as you did before but sooner or later you will stand once again with a bigger stride/step and you will find these little things in life worth taking a fall for.

hope this helps, I know I like it :')
peace and love your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds X

Inspired by Films - True Lessons

Hey again friends, family and anyone else reading this particular blog
once again thank you for gracing me with your presence its always appreciated and I am literally writing this after watching the last of my three must see films ( the last one being I Am Legend)

I am writing this while still working on my other post of my roles in life and feel that I have to post it and then do a second one otherwise its gonna be a huge huge read, suggestion on postcard and any other messaging way is grateful but let me get to core of why I am writing this.

I am writing this because after Fight Club and Top Gun, I remember hearing via others or my own study that there are couple of films needed to be watched because they are so awesome/cool, so emotional , so moving and life changing that they needed to be watched and here are three of those films and I feel these are beliefs/lessons every one can take something away with them to add into your own lives.

1. Crazy, Stupid, Love. -  The Lesson of Fighting For What You Love
Right the first film is latest one out called Crazy, Stupid, Love. And without any shame I was bloody close to tears at points of this film. The main character ( Steve Carell)  starts off with having to  re-enter the dating world after his wife (soul mate) wants a divorce from him because she doesn't feel a connection any more and has already slept with someone else, enter Ryan Goshling playing jacob palmer ( ryan gosling in this role is brilliant and someone I'd love to be) he takes Cal ( Steve Carells character) and turns him into his best possible self, great clothes, great attitude and general best he can possibly be just like himself. But both of them end up in predicament they never imagined Steve wanting to re-connect with his soul mate even after this new transformation and Jacob actually finding a girl he wants to be with. After a long of funny situations and dramatic scenes/speeches it boils down to Cal stopping his son's speech and saying that fighting for your soul mate / love is something you can never give up on , its something worth fighting for.

I could go into strenuous detail about this but mainly comes down to this
Fight for what you love - No matter what it is! 
It could be a person, a dream you have, a belief you hold or even your opinion. It may be wrong on someones level or it could be a up hill battle sometimes but fight for it, if you believe it in your heart that its worth fighting for it , your love is always worth fighting for .

2. 300 - The Lesson of Little Things Make a Big Difference 
Okay I shall briefly summarise this film its about Leorniardis ( spelt badly sorry) not Spartacus which even I fell into believe it was with all the spartan references . He is KIng of Sparta and leads a group of only 300 men into battle against persian army of a million soldiers. Using Tactics and Strategy he wins battle after battle against the supposable invincible army, sadly at the end even he and his men lose after a betrayal and refuse to retreat because of their spartan law dying in honour and glory and creating a story of legend which is carried back by one solider , who then raises a bigger army of the same breed of men led by Leornidas to push back and defeat the persian army and their god king.

The lesson or should I say lessons I got from this film where :
1. One Man can make a difference 
2. The smallest things can make a big impact 
Here is a film which embodies how one man can make an impact on so many people and change so many things using what he learns and putting it into practice , he may not be a god but he was a leader, a king, a tactician and a friend. He and His three hundred man stood against all odds and creating a legend that told that a small group chose to stand against all odds for their beliefs , for their honour and glory , for their homeland because of one man and made such an impact against a huge army before being felled.
We all can make a difference, we may be one person or a group of people but we can all make an impact if we choose to take that option and stand against what may seem impossible odds but we can make a impact, it may cause some things to end but in the process it can easily create something even bigger and better before :')


3. I Am Legend - The Lesson of Legacy/Legends aka One Man making a difference on the world
This film, I don't feel I have done any of these film justice watch them please and especially this one I feel I can't really summarise it or tell you about it..... basically one man does all he can to change the world and then in moment of realisation sacrifices himself to pass his knowledge and hope on to make a difference in the world.

This film and lesson I feel again is such an important one and such a basic one, here is one guy facing odds and doing all he can with time he has to build and work and create something to help fix or change the world or at least his world to help others.
One Man trying to change the world. and he does he may have died in the end but he created something and passed it on because he done all he can, he worked, he cried , he toiled and he sweated but he change the world, he became a legend and passed on his legacy to create a better world.

Those are three films I say and feel people need to watch to get the full impact, I hope I have done some justice to these films and these lessons for people.
These are such simple things but are hard to do or to add into peoples lives because adaption or routine breaking is hard but if you can do it...... you can change so much, its what I am trying to do at the moment and I feel I am making so much change and not seeing progress but what I am trying to change takes time and though it's not much improvement it still progress
I hope you take these lesson and advice on board and begin to change things in your life and improve your world because you may be one person reading this blog , but one person .......can change the world

much love and respect
from your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds X

A brief reprieve and Freedom to the Core

Hey there bloggers

I know I know, where is this big blog post of WHO AM I? , that I keep going on and on about, well it's taken a little longer because of me re-jigging stuff about and keep getting inspiration and ideas and memories and practically tons more that I go , that needs to go in, it's so important and yesterday and today I feel are another couple of events that I need to add to my experience and my memories and definitely to my blog.

But two things that I feel I need to add and talk about:

1. How Useful I can be Practical - yesterday I feel I proved useful to so many people who was nervous to the show and practical to one person who god bless her, travelled at speed from wales to the lake district to perform for this last show ( even though it was pretty messed up due to power cut) but I feel she feel grateful for how I only give a little help by talking to Les and helping her with couple directions but it meant a lot to me knowing could put that trust in me and know she could rely on me in a dire situation . Thank you Amy Cansdale

2. How free I can be and what can be achieved - After this show I was hanging with Two of my favourite in the world Luke Seddon and Tansy Parkinson ( who have been told they have another passage in my personal writing book ;) ) but they took time to just chat with me and give me a small break from well...... my life. While it was only a little bit I felt so free and so at peace and for once I felt like.......ME. The Me I've wanted to be in touch with, between the sat-nav voice starring Tansy :P, By Jove (greatest game ever) featuring Luke's breakdown, to me making innuendos at every turn alongside magic and of course all of us just chatting about general life stuff. including a lovely moment where a performed a on the spot magic trick I dedicated to them and will be remembered as the Royal Couple (happy to change name but I like that one) , hanging out with them and remember way back and how they began made me realise what can happen in this world and it is beautiful .
That small break/trip will remain with me for a very long time :')

These three people have given so much to me these past couple of days , they have given me a sense of meaning, sense of joy and sense of hope. I thank these people from the bottom of my hearts for everything they have done these past couple of days to inspire me, this blog post/my other blog post and my mind and soul to further expand.
Most importantly - These couple of days have made me feel so at peace, refreshed and most of all free and me.
So this is dedicated to you Amy, Tansy and Luke, thank you guys, these past couple of days have meant world to me . Many people have contributed to these past couple of days but these three people are the main ones.
Thank you guys , your all fantastic I hope you remain in my life until the end of time

best regards
your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds X

Reason To Live

I am writing this blog post at Sunday 3rd June at 10:09 and it's especially dedicated to a friend who gave me a little revelation today
Thank you Katie Costello :')

I had just finished Lipa and checked my phone and saw I had a missed call and a text messages from couple of people one being my friend Katie, I sent her a message and tried to give her a call back and got through to her voicemail, because of my close social circle I gave my friend Tom my phone to leave a funny voicemail and suddenly my phone went off as she began to ring me back in which tom instantly answered and after a funny conversation arranged to meet up with her and us to go the pictures.

Once I had met up with her and we began to walk down we got to talking about so much and after a serious conversation and funny stories we then met up with everyone else and went to see prometheus.

This film was great for probably two reasons
1. made me wanna go see another film  ( Alien of course, it looks so cool XD)
2. And between My mate nick on one side and katie on the other it was so funny to have the one who makes jokes about film and the other who is extremely squeamish and frightened made me giggle immensely :')

But after the film was over and travelling back on bus and texting and talking after the film and on the bus and advice today because another friend of mine who shall remain unnamed due to sensitive nature but if they are reading this please text me/ speak to me when you can , your an awesome person and feel we should talk :') , will always like you no matter what happens and that goes for all my friends.

But point is Katie Costello reminded me of one thing. That I had long forgotten:
There is a reason I love having girl friends and people like her around me
She reminds me that my friends are their for the serious and fun talks and she reminds me that the reason I love meeting people and especially girls is that I could find someone just as cool as her or possibly even cooler who likes me and could be my GF.


That may seem sappy but hey I am an emotional guy and that includes being a little cheesy from time to time. But its not only katie, yes she has played an important role in reminding me but she is one of few select females who I go you know what I'd love to find someone like you and have them close to me.

and there fore I felt the need to write this post and thank her for the revelation and inspiration :'D
Thank you Katie Costello
and thank you for inspiring to write another role into my other blog post and inspiring me in life generally remind close to me forever please your aces XD

Best regards Everyone
Peace and love from your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds X

Today is a gift and GO!

Hey again people of the world seeking life advice, inspiration, motivation or who just wanna read stuff.

Thought I open today with this:

Yes this is a very quick post about living in the moment and just embracing life and feel need to just really write in my present state and nothing else.

Example of living in moment and experience of life today in work I was all up and down due to fact I was tired and little hungover per say due to two nights out on the run , late nights and work shifts don't mix but I kept pumped and motivated.

Each time a customer came up, I just went boom , Literally I wasn't on my top form so some interactions were simple and others polite and then some were just boom joke, little bit of banter and maybe some magic as well.

It was brilliant, well for me at least not everyone really connected but not everyone will but at least a majority did and it was amazing.

For once I just felt like I do when I act , improvise or when I am just having an on day, all it was just no real thought, no major plan it was just a flow of energy and it was amazing, so simple just point and GO!

One simple word which can be turned into an actions and makes life so much fun, I didn't care if I made a mistake unless it was really bad (e.g. burning customers food due to faulty timer though didn't help that since it was quiet me and supervisor wandered off for a second to browse books ), I just lived in those small moments and interactions. 

That's all it was , just one moment to go , get some sort of energy and then BOOM GO!

Today has been a great gift to me today, that shows sometimes all you need to do is stop thinking and just do, live in those moments in the now and present.

As Master Oogway ( the turtle above ) " yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery , but today is a gift , thats why it's called the present."

So go now people live and embrace these now present moments, don't think too much, just enough to go , okay focus thoughts/energy/ki and BOOM GO!

and on one last note before we I finish is that I planning a huge article and would like sugesstions of questions for personal depth and inspiration , My article/blog post is going to be entitled "Who Am I? - Joseph Reynolds Journery" . I may use that name not sure yet, but I like people to give me tips on how I am viewed or what you think or what questions I should base this on just for a little more depth and inspiration but I plan to spend a good 3 -5 days on this and its going to be a length piece but it's going to be awesomely beautiful. 

So please comment, suggestion, question and follow me please for a huge step on this journey of life.

BOOM GO ! :D

lots of love from your man in the hat

Joseph Reynolds X

Experience , Enjoyment & Enlightenment

Hey again readers, bloggers, followers, stalkers and well anyone who may have clicked the wrong link

I am here again to talk about a very good day and another thoughts in this moment and motions on reflections and movement towards a bright future.

First of all I have had such a great day especially talking to some good people, some ace magic, a nice walk and great little work shift even due to serious ache in my legs due to playing 2.8 hours ( a great live action zombie survival game where I got to very end only to be caught at last moment.) Though it's good to know in a zombie uprising it takes a mass zombie horde of sprinters  and a small alley to get me XD.

Though with my wednesday day time, hanging out with friends, re-living memories, having a great evening and then a brilliant day today even due to ache in legs and just made me show how brilliant things can be, I mean in space of couple of hours I have several new memories days to add to my life, more great stories to tell people including my future children. I have couple of new stuff planned and great things coming my way.

There is one thing I wanted to get across this blog and I write it without this quote from of course Bruce Lee

Three most difficult things. - The three things most difficult are :

• To keep a secret

• To forget an injury 

• To make good use of leisure
 

ooooh another one I just found needs to be added as well :

The trouble of man. - Honor and disgrace are alike a cause of excitement. The trouble of man lies in the love for self.  

These need to be remembered in our heads and our hearts to the very soul of us:

Keep a secret - It may be easy or it may be hard but a secret is a secret for a reason. sometimes its good to share and sometimes you have to hold it close, only you can judge when to share it.

Forget an injury  - This can be physical , mental or emotional. Everyone has been in at least two of these if not all three of them, and its hard for any of those to be forgotten but sometimes they make us stronger ( except for maybe physical sometimes you can do crazy shit and it stays with you e.g. scars, broken bones etc) but we all learn from it, there are no real mistakes in life, just feedback and learning curves, adapt to it and remember it for the future. embrace it and experience it, for all the better .

Make good use of leisure - We all procrastinate when we have stuff that needs to be done and instead we either do nothing ( like just watch tv or listen to music ) or do stuff we want to do but doesn't help us towards our goals e..g. revise for exam and instead play video game. We need to use the time we have because once it's gone, it's gone for good, don't over exert yourself , find a balance/ a flow and use that to move further then ever before.

So Love Yourself !

It is important no one else will look out for you as much as you ( I'm a little lucky because I have two bro's I would lay my life for Luke and Ryan, and I'm pretty sure they would do the same for me :') ). So do stuff for yourself , be a little selfish, I am not saying be all about me me me, thats not a good thing but do stuff that you wanna do, for yourself, for others, if you wanna do something that makes you feel good or you just wanna do something go and do it, that is all about living in moment and loving yourself.

Go embrace life, experience all the glory and the mistake, live and learn from them and love it. 

best regards, peace & love from your man in the hat

Joseph Reynolds X

In a lighter note :D endless possibilities

Hey again and I know so soon as well ( be lucky I feel in a writing mood)

Last night and today the universe has shown me, that more or less life is their for me even when it throws me a curve ball. Life is hard but today I had a lovely little chat with a friend I hadn't seen in ages and made me think about the past and it made me remember all the good times I've had  in the past, and of course all the bad times but I remember and how I survived it  and became who I am today, someone who is wise, someone who is fun and someone who still has to potential to be so so so much more.

I still have to become so much more, I beginning to see what I can become, I have fully shown what I can do when I focus on something, I mean I only just went back to magic and I've become fairly good at it again. I see what I want to become and don't think it is so hard now, if I believe I achieve, it's all mind over matter its all about mindset.


I have quite a good life style and amazing family and friends and I am only so young, I am doing far more then I would have imagined and no signs of slowing down.
To achieve is to believe as long as you believe and just have mind-frame for success you can accomplish all of your goals and dreams.

Thanks guys , your all pretty awesome and I am on my way to be just the same and who knows maybe a little more who knows :')
Respect and Love to you all , your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds x

Life and It's unpredictable-ness

Hey again all dear Bloggers/Readers/Friends/Family and everyone else

I am writing now at another what I view critical point in my life and before I continue I feel I should make a point clear:

What I am writing now is not hostile or angry at any person / people/ faction etc etc, And people may say your just being polite but I am person and have free speech and I make a point of telling truth and being honest on here, so as I talk about recent life and events and all that jazz. I want to make it official I hold no angry at any certain people or want any of them to be guilty of anything, for this is life and it happens in such a mysterious way, yes it's not all good but how could we tell good without the bad, the ups without the down's. But I just wanted to say this so no one gets angry at anyone else or mis-interpret anything, because if they do they can freely talk to me and ask me to change or remove this but as I said this isn't anything bad against anyone and if anyone reads this and tries to be angry or mad or whatever to person/ peoples/ groups etc etc, then I will be mad because this is not what I want, life is too short for sorrow and conflict and I want none of it. anyway now thats out the way.

Now a lot happened in last couple of days and I am sad to regret it brought up past feelings, memories and turned them onto what I felt was the core of my very soul and heart and being frankly honest.......I felt that I had been ripped at the seams but I had time to compose myself and when presented with these thing I turned once again to many of my friends, not to hear them raise angry against the opposition, nor for sympathy ( well maybe a little but I was sad at the time) but for thoughts and for advice and basically to help me pull myself together...... and as usually they pulled through for me and most importantly I pulled through.

I originally gonna post a fair bit on this ( I mean a had wrote a whole lot and then said you know what no this  is what i wanna write , this isn't me)  but I just deleted it because.... well I can and it's not really needed here because I am moving on or well......I am beginning to begin again at moving on with life.
I HAVE AN AMAZING LIFE AND AMAZING FRIENDS. 
That being said why should I stress or try to control or gain logic over everything that has happened out of my control.

Bruce Lee himself said " Learn to walk on. "

Now sadly I cant fully quote due to fact I cant find it in my quotes book haha but point is clear enough, people need to walk on and need to learn it through life, life is difficult , no one said it would be easy but I am huge believer in karma and I know that everything happens for a reason - its just does and okay while I am still up and down I am happy for so many people my friends are happy with their lives and have proven themselves to be their for me and want me to get best out of life, and some of them have found that person who appears out of nowhere and happily have them by their side at this moment in time, and some of them have had them for a few years and some of them have only just recently found them..... and I am truly happy for them because they have what I look to strive towards for , they have that person who you just meet and just go I know I meant to date/ go out/ be with you.

And who knows if it will last forever, some people have that experience multiple times, sometimes they have it and later realize that it wasn't actually that ( I've been their) and then they may have it again and go yes this time i know it is ( I've been here as well :D ) . But their is someone out their for everyone and I think that is something everyone should strive towards. old saying is that you have five true loves in life and I have defiantly had one , so I have at least four more out their :')

Life works in a very weird way but as my facebook cover says:

We all encounter difficulties in life and its only after going back and facing these difficulties that we can progress forward in life.
I am back onto road of recovery and I have some great people from this past week to thank for that due to some incredible days in this week and some of the most challenging in my young life , but of course my friends will always be there and I will become me once again and even more then before.

Life - Everything Happens in the order it's suppose to happen


This is a quite a weird and possibly short post  considering what I was originally working on but decided to write this instead after having a fun day and helping out two dear friends from critical moments in their life and reminded me of old saying by a mentor I use to have.

he said "Joseph there are two wolves fighting in your heart. Hate and Love ...... who survives? " I wasn't sure of the answer and asked him for it and he said " Whichever one you feed."

So which one do you want to feed I know my answer. Remember that and it will help you always

Thank you everyone, you all mean so much to me and I will be here for you whenever you need me for advice/ a laugh/ or anytime you just need a solid and good mate for any light or dark times you face :')

peace and love and of course best regards from your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds x

Adrift and Living in the Here/Now (aka the moment)

Hey again all fellow bloggers/readers/follower and of course those who read because you are great friends who wish to see how I am progressing in life, mind, body and soul

Well I am writing again for some motivation and inspiration for myself, I feel quite adrift at this particular time and sorta empty , almost like a small hollow feeling but quite unsure why though.
I was gonna say empty as almost emotionally numb but thats false I am still thinking and still am experiencing a variety of emotions but it is almost like a computer program on a system thats quite old, therefore taking a while to load and respond with some emotion, its a little annoying and saddening being honest readers. I feel like a small part of me has moved on/vanished or has died and my soul is deciding whether that is a good thing or a bad thing.

I've been thinking and working on a sorta new theory, the concept of 'You' , and no not you as a specific reference or a direct statement of "you that person there. " I am talking about 'You' as an individual , a solid fact and concept that you are always will be who you are at this moment and who you have been in the past, that you are constant and solid while at the same time should be viewed as a fluid concept , you are ever changing sometimes you may be say your first self (past self) and easily snap back to your second self (present self) but that can easily change into a future form, your third self ( future potential self) which reflects back onto your present self and also past self......That seems extremely confusing but if your following along good work and if not I shall explain in person or private message for anyone who wants me to explain :P.

Basically it conveys that we are who we are for all intents and purposes etc but we can easily change and adapt and like a fluid/flow of liquid we can change just as easy as that. It all comes back into living in the now and no other state of mind when it comes to this, take each step as it comes and whatever comes your way, find a way to face it then and their, okay maybe in hindsight , your choice may not be a good one but you reacted and lived then and their and no where else, you wasn't looking to past or looking to future you looked at the now and lived.

I am searching for something or sense I am at least, like a hero looking for a mentor or a protagonist looking for the next step on my journey......What I feel I need now is at least three days together where I can do what I wish when I want too, and not as in get away with anything I mean, if I wake up and go I think I shall go for a walk, I do it. I want to become a man of actions, taking steps towards a brighter future, I am a man of words as people know from my talking and of course due to this blog hahaha :). - feel this paragraph really do to my talk with national treasure Tansy Parkinson

But I feel at this moment, I need to absorb and just float for a while in my emotions, my experiences (past/present) and thoughts and just............. reflect/think on everything and I mean everything , so I can answer the questions of who I am, what I wish to aim for/ achieve (Beyond being loved - see previous post Revelation - Fast Car) and what do I want at this present moment ( this should always be asked in any present moment, It's a brilliant way to work for thoughts and emotions as long as your openly honest)

I believe and know for this I have to be brutally open about loads and be really open minded so that I can truly reflect and gather all these many thing : emotions, thoughts, advice, quotes, theories etc etc etc. I feel that when I have truly done this both now ( as in these next couple days while carrying on) and in future I will be living in the now, in the moment and be able to take each step as it comes and progress forwards and upwards in everything.

I love writing these blog, gives me a insight my own advice and thoughts, its like a longer way of hearing some advice or opinions and gets me pumped/motivated to do something and gives me great feeling of accomplishment and comfort.

I again may edit or change stuff when in hindsight or had more time to think , so if you see me re-post a link to this post, check it out and see if i've added more. Usually less is more but I like to have a mindset and lifestyle of abundance when I can imagine / visualize it makes it feel like you have so much more

Best Regards as usually people        
Living in the now your man in the hat ;)
Joseph Reynolds x

Fast Car - Revelation: Another Step

Hey Bloggers/Viewers
(which I've discovered are based in UK, USA and Germany  )

I know I only just posted but I was in work today humming/singing(badly) the song Fast Car by Tracey Chapman, when suddenly a thought struck me ...... I want to be Loved....maybe I should expand a bit more.

Everyone wants to be loved I am sure, but for me this was a huge realization and I know for a certain friend of mine, he will agree that for me this is a HUGE STEP on my journey to self-discovery to finding who I am really.
Look at it this way everyone in one way or another everyone believes in a greater purpose in life or a reason to do the stuff they do, they want something from life , they have that purpose or that motivation or that belief.  People may want money, they may want that present they never got, they may want to get their dream, they may want their parents approval ...... whatever the list goes on and on and on.

I know what I want from life or what I wish to get from life as I progress in life:

I Want To Be Loved

and I don't necessarily mean in a romantic/sexual way (though I wouldn't complain), I want to be accepted by people, I want to be viewed as a warming influence by people, I want people to come to me in their darkest hour and I will shine for them and brighten their day, I want to be able to meet someone new and make a new best friend, I want to see an old ex friend/girlfriend and no what happened in past only view positives and leave on brighter note then before even if we was already on good terms :'). 

I feel this is a huge thing for me, many people say you don't need anyones approval other then your own, and you don't. This is not what I am aiming for, even if that person I meet today doesn't like me generally, I wanna leave a positive impression, I am not looking for everyone to like me, I don't think that is actually possible to be loved by everyone but all I want is to be loved by those who are in my life and can be in my life and who I want in my life because they matter to me. 

I finally feel like I am making progress into my future a little bit somewhere in my vast mood of a mind, I am finally another step forward to fully discovering who I am, It may still be far away but I have took another step. 

I want to be Loved by my family, my friends, my ex's, my ex-friends, my co-workers, everyone possible, if they don't want that, then it is their own loss , all I want to do is love and be loved in return, one good turn deserves another, a bit of light in the darkest hour etc etc ( The cliches are endless :P ) 

I want to be a positive influence on those who matter to me and I know that in turn I feel I will be loved as a brother, as a friend, as a lover .....that list will go on.

I want to be Loved and that can mean so many things but I know what it means to me and that is all that matters and those who are close to me will have some inkling of it. So I have made progress today and that means I can be even more of what/who I am and even more of what/who I am yet to be .

This post needs a special thanks to :
Luke Seddon, Stacey Newsham, Rachael Statham, Laura Harrington, Charley Buckley, Ryan Radley-Lawley, Jenny Slack, Lauren Mccann, Nick Crosbie, Sean Crannery, Joseph Mitchely, Jade Cunningham, Britta Korner, Jamie Cubbis, Sean Hutchings , Hayley Henderson, Amy Payne, Junior Schultz, Rebecca Reynolds, Sonia Sharma, Nem Singson, Ian Marc Bradley, Sarah-Louise Ashton, Poppy Boland, Tansy Parkinson, Emily Taylor.......And many many many many (x400) more. I wish I could mention everyone but these are literally the people that came to mind immediatley as I was writing but you guys make me realise why I love my friends, any girls I take a shine to, my family. You guys show me why I live, why I love, why I laugh, why I make mistakes and why I get back up again , so from the bottom of my heart and soul
Thank you xxx

I Want To Be Loved.......What Do You Want To Be?

Love to you all and Hopefully Love in return ;) - your man in a hat

Joseph Reynolds x

Visualize, Achieve & Dream - Road To Fulfillment

I started this post with this image/quote to emphasis the importance of Goals/Dreams and that it is advice I should listen to really, It's never too late to start afresh or pursue something new and I am only young and I should stop stressing but that's part of who I am , I over-think everything, I put myself down far too often and I keep repeating mistakes that sabotage myself. But that is part of who I am, I need to stop trying to be someone who I am not and find who I am.

My last post I talked about motivation and beliefs , My ace bro for life gave me another piece of advice I need to follow

"Do things for yourself."

That's so simple but everyone seems to forget it so easily, everyone finds it so easy to be someone else or try to be someone else just for one thing or another. And PEOPLE NEED TO STOP DOING THAT,  do stuff that makes you happy, do things that help you move forward, you do not need to seek approval from everyone, while it is nice, you do not need it. 

You need no one's approval but your own. 

Your own life, lifestyle, your own word where you are the hero of your story , everyone in it is only a side character....Okay maybe every now and then you have a team member you want by your side for battles you encounter or for a special event and maybe you may even encounter a love interest the hardest uphill battle of all.

But you must always be who you are, even if you are not sure who you are deep down, find out and discover it because you can not make others happy if you are not happy yourself. 

So I suggest you become a person who sets a goal/dream and visualize it , when you visualize it , you help it become a reality , if you visualize how you are gonna achieve it and visualize achieving it , you will achieve it for definite . 

"Watch your thoughts, for they become words. Watch your words, for they become actions. Watch your actions, for they become habits. Watch your habits, for they become your character. Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny."

This is a double edged sword for if you fall into negative or bad thoughts or of course if your me and over-think everything , you set yourself up for self-fulling prophecy of failure. But if you get the right mind-set and strive to achieve all your goals and dreams even to some degree , you set yourself up for so much more, it is all about mind over matter.

I am not gonna lie people, I am going through motions because of so much, some good , some bad , some rather confusing , but when I initially thought of this and started writing in my personal book this was one quote that came back to me after so long :

Now! This is it! Now is the time to choose! Die and be free of pain or live and fight your sorrow! Now is the time to shape your stories! Your fate is in your hands!  - Auron Final Fantasy X

And it is so true , we can either give up and stay content with what we have now whether be good or bad or we can choose to start another dream , another fight and move onwards, everyone needs personal time to review themselves and think about what they want and where they wanna go.
That what am I doing now, I may be being down on myself now but I blame no one but myself, everything that has happened in my life until now, I am the one who created my thoughts, the one who did my actions and they became my habits , my character and my destiny.

I am choosing to change that , to start a new vision, a new dream and become more then what I am now, you may think much of me now or possibly think nothing of me but I am going to become so much more and thats a fight worth fighting for. 

 Peace/love to you all from your man in the hat
Joseph Reynolds