Motivation, determination and practice to maziumazation

First of all yes i made up last word but i felt like doing tion words for title.

so yes been crazy couple of weeks, been ups n downs and possible every emotional state possible and i think thats probably a good thing to have when you have week off, do stuff , go through cash and emotions and then head back into a mixed routine best way for my week off to round off to i suppose.

Main reason im posting

well mainly to stay creative and keep outta of my head while at same time not doing so many fb rants etc.

but i wanna post this and people to follow and keep me motivated in what im doing, i said little while ago on here, on facebook and also to few people that I AM CHANGING MY LIFESTLE, and i still am but at same time feel like slipping again so here is what i am asking if you reading this

1. comment with thoughts ideas or anything at all

2. keep me motivated or check that im doing it (other wise i wont)

3. Believe... weird one i know but so many people including people i meet once believe in me for some reason so i ask that you all still do i must be doing something right for this to happen , so keep on doing it so it can only get better

Thanks all, ill be posting more soon and hopefully become better as possibly get

night all