Goals and challenges

So today started off lazy but decided to get up and sort thru stuff.

so listened to couple of improvement lecture sessions and made couple of notes, decided to go out and put of bit of practice. as they say you should do 1 hour theory and 2 hours practice if you wanna implement into your life style but since im bit out of the game decided to warm up by being direct and telling someone they looked good and put myself out of comfort zone a bit , so i can really get out of my anxious and fearful self.
after that sorta went well if you define it by couldn't achieve your goal due to little bit of fear and no one able to practice with, but i think i made a step in right direction.

I think i need to really sit down with myself or one of my trusted mates and really talk about what i want or where i wanna go, maybe its time to be a little selfish if only to meet my own standards or goals.

this is a huge challenge for me, think hardest thing ive done in ages but needs to be done because i wanted change and best way for opportunity to knock is to build a door.